I mean I could just buy the case and cut out that half inch, but that's $100 (which I will inevitably do) But in the mean time I'll just spend $40 on a bag I know can hold it.
So on Tuesday, they officially told us all that the line of business I'm on is NOT actually ending. Which. Is a relief.
But grrrrrr rage. All this goddamn anxiety for no bloody reason. I feel like they owe me another vacation since they robbed me of mine by filling half of it with panic attacks and general anxiety to an excessive degree.
I think I've gone numb. My insides hurt, but they always hurt, so I can't tell if it's the news or the usual health issues...
There's a more than likely chance, based on the symptoms my cat has (according to an RN for humans, and isn't really a Vet, but has a considerable bit more medical knowledge than I) kitty-cancer. I'm not sure if I am disbelieving them.. or if I believe them considering how sick she's been lately. I keep telling myself it's nothing, just her allergies.. but.. there's a lot of signs something is wrong with her, and I just caught a whiff of her breath, and it smelled bad. That's a sign of kidney problems, and it makes sense, I imagine. I've lost a few family members to cancer, Kidney failure was part of the symptoms for a number of them, if I remember correctly..
I'm not giving her up for dead, who knows, she might get better. I've already tried to get a vet scheduled, it's weird, none of the vets in my town either accept my insurance, or have openings. So I've gotta take a "wait and see" approach, and give her the most love I can I guess. There's not much else left to me right now...
Edited - Sorry, had second thoughts about plastering my personal issues on a forum thread, even if the theme of it is just for that, things your mad at.
Okay, I'm not really one to complain about getting killed for -literally- no reason by another player. They wanted to do it, whatevs, I'm squishy and an easy target. It's cool. Getting dead because my bloody internet is being super crappy and lagged/dc'd me from the fight so I couldn't even run, that's really, really annoying.
@Jaymi I can relate to that. I am a good fighter and that still happens in all number of fights, against good people or not so good people and every time that happens it's pretty aggravating.
Ugh, I feel like I am falling apart. With the deaths and loss of my stuff that I went through a few weeks ago, things seem to just go downhill. Especially at work. Spoiled because of HUGE rant.
We've struggled lately with coordinating things, since people have either been sick or taking days off, so now we have 3 upcoming events and we still haven't decided how to solve any of those, if we want to attend at all, which we should, cause it's a good way to promote our business. Now we have until the end of next week to solve all of that.
For the last year and 3 months, we've been one person short in staff, which has caused all of us to stress. But the higher-ups have said no to hiring a part-timer, due to economics, but they still expect us to produce fully, or even more. We've been hoping and praying to get a part-timer, but nothing yet. Which leads us to the absolutely marvelous surprise we got yesterday! (NOT)
We are three employees and yesterday one of my coworkers told us that he's quitting. On tuesday... And the bosses will come have a talk with us (we have no info about what will be said on the meeting), on the same day as he quits, tuesday. We work, as you all might know, with chocolate and Easter is a pretty big time for us, with lots of work and stress and he told us 4 days before easter that he will quit the day after easter. We've sortof been in shock and I have felt more anxiety than I've had in a long time.
When I got to work this morning, our AC was dead. We cannot make chocolate pralines without our AC. We cannot temper chocolate without our AC. So, called the boss and I tried to explain that the room is too hot and that we cannot work without it and he was all "Is it because the sun is shining?" I managed, after some time, to get him to contact someone who can come look at it, but who knows when that someone might show up?
To make things even greater, (NOOOOOT!!) we got a new participant today. (Participants are people who come from the unemployment office to have work training, because of different issues, either physical or mental, and they need to learn their own boundaries and routines and how to be at a work place. I started out as one as well and got employed a year ago.) The problem with this participant is that... she doesn't know Swedish. Or english. And she's only at our work place to learn to speak swedish better.
Don't get me wrong, I think this is a great idea, but not for us. We are a company, a very small company, that produces wares every single day. We need for our participants to be able to understand enough to work and do things. This participants, with not knowing the language, can't do the work and we will have to take a lot of time to use body language to show things. In a time where our AC is dead, we lose one coworker, we have easter and 3 upcoming events. This... is not what we need right now. Thankfully, I managed to get our boss to have her at the office for the coming two weeks, but we will see what happens after that.
Ugh.. sorry about this huge rant. I just needed to get things off my chest. Everything that can go wrong seems to be going wrong and I am tired and I feel like crying, but I need to try and stay strong and make things work. It's frustrating..
@Jaymi I can relate to that. I am a good fighter and that still happens in all number of fights, against good people or not so good people and every time that happens it's pretty aggravating.
That's no excuse for bonobism my friend.
"And finally, swear to Me: You will give your life to Dendara for you are Tiarna an-Kiar."
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SeirSeein' All the ThingsGetting high off your emotion
When you have that discernible scratchy feeling in your throat and iffy feeling in your stomach telling you that you're either getting sick or allergies are royally kicking and your rear... and you can't tell which it is. I hope I don't get sick during my 3-day weekend.
Mad at people picking on the real life person behind the character @Karhast - It's unprofessional, and disgusting. In game, Tacitus found out various details about Karhast, and ended up rebuking his own aidship to him (aidship to Karhast since he's acting Security Minister). That's pretty hardcore, for Tacitus, but in real life, I don't cross that thick, sharp bold line that I have between me and Tacitus. Yes, it's true, we imprint on our characters, and I've stated this elsewhere on the forums, but it's not acceptable to go after the individual behind the actual character, regardless of how strongly you feel about it.
I don't talk to a lot of people OOC, and I actually prefer to avoid it, but it was made clear to me that the playing human behind the character Karhast, was upset, and still catches flak for certain things that happened IG.
You cock back your arm and throw the corpse of a desert camel at Teammaster Perunn. Damage done: 0, electric, agile You have been branded an enemy of the village of Helba. Balance Used: 6.49 seconds Equilibrium Used: 3.25 seconds
You cock back your arm and throw the corpse of a desert camel at Teammaster Perunn. Damage done: 0, electric, agile You have been branded an enemy of the village of Helba. Balance Used: 6.49 seconds Equilibrium Used: 3.25 seconds
Amazing!
good job data
Indoran'i is back baby. It's good again. Awoouu (wolf Howl)
An Atzob cultist says, "Is a shamatato as tasty as a potato?"
(Tells): From afar, Mephistoles hisses harshly to you, "Hey baby, show me your ovipositor?"
The mighty Jy'Barrak Golgotha opens his maw, catches the glowing spear in his many jagged teeth, and chomps down. The Divine spear breaks with a noise like thunder, shards toppling from the Emperor's jaws. "OM NOM NOM!" He declares, then spits the last of the ruined weapon from his lips.
I didn't mean to hurt the guy or get enemied. He didn't like the dead camel I guess
Edit: Note: Helba people = very sensitive.
Weeeell...constant attacks and raids that result in people getting snatched up by slavers and monsters with pet spiders is bound to make anyone a bit cagey and sensitive.
At least they'll let you pay up to square things with them.
Not sure you'll get a new camel out of them, though. Might have to take that up with the Caentoi.
Now with 253% more Madness. Cute-Kelli by @Sessizlik.
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SeirSeein' All the ThingsGetting high off your emotion
Haven't been playing much the last few days. Kind of burnt out overall.
The break, however short, might do me some good. I'll still be checking in and responding to stuff, however.
Enjoying the tail end of a stupidly unlucky 24 hours.
One of those sorts of days where everything seems to align against you. Where if you'd done even one thing different, like stopped to tie your shoes or something at a different time, it'd have a totally different outcome.
Highlights include:
Getting involved in a car accident because I left for work early, went a more efficient way, and after deliberating about which spot I wanted to park in, taking one different to my usual one, because I thought "I'm gonna do something different today."
Spending $1.50AUD on a can of coke after said accident, only to discover later that I had less cash on me than I thought, and now no longer had enough money to get some lunch.
Burning dinner cuz I was distracted trying to sort out my car.
Deciding to wait until the morning to buy cryptic chests, rather than buy some straight away, cuz tomorrow was pay day, only to discover that pelt hoods I'd been hoping to get had been given out for people who'd bought one in the night, and then not getting one in any of the chests I bought.
Totally losing track of my car insurance paperwork, and learning that the damage to my car, which I thought was only moderate, might result in the car being written off because the frame might be damaged, getting into a massive arguement with my sisters tool of a boyfriend and then spilling my breakfast tea on myself.
Sigh. It would be bordering on hilarious if it didn't make me want to cry.
On the brightside, though, it's a new day!
Now with 253% more Madness. Cute-Kelli by @Sessizlik.
So, like I stated in the love thread earlier this week, I have been nickle and diming it everywhere. I worked 6-7 days a week doing whatever I could wherever I could for bottom feeder pay because I had to. Despite working my ass off, despite giving up everything from my cell phone to my social life, despite everything I cut out and how hard I worked, I wasn't able to pay everything. My tags expired last month and I didn't realize it. Even if I had realized it, I wouldn't have been able to pay it. I haven't had insurance on my car since the end of February, either, because it came down to car insurance or food. Someone did realize my tags were expired however, someone with red and blue flashing lights.
The cost to reinstate my insurance, to renew my tag, to buy a new plate (thanks a lot Mary Fallin), to pay my fines and court costs, is more than I can cover, more than I could cover if I hadn't paid a single bill this paycheck, and the officer said I could potentially have my license suspended anyways. The new job isn't going to help, because the first paycheck from it is still 2-3 weeks away, and every day that passes and I haven't retrieved my tag from the City, the more it costs.
Luckily, my mother and step father said they would help me, and it'll all be taken care of (though not sure/clear on the license suspension). But it's just like, I have worked so fucking hard this last year and a half to climb out of debt, to turn my life around. I have sacrificed so much, and come December of last year things were looking really good for me. The clock struck Midnight on January 1st, a new year started, and the following day marked the beginning of the worst year of my fucking life so far. I have lost almost everything I have worked for in less than 2 months, and every time I think I've finally gotten my shit together, every time anything good happens, it just gets worse.
(Web): Toz says, "Emir's Express Evacuation and Existence Eradicator, Every Experience is Explosive - Experience the Entirety of your Existence!"
Super long rant about my stresses of the month, spoilered because 4 paragraphs of text.
I stream for a living. This job allows me to be an in-home caretaker for my grandmother, who needs someone to be on hand most of the day with the strength to pick her up off the floor if she falls, as well as making sure errands she needs done get done. This job also grants me an artful avenue to basically socialize in ways that I don't have fulfilled. Lately? Everyone seems to be telling me that I need to start looking at getting a job. It doesn't help that the problematic middle child (younger sister) has dragged her boyfriend from the big city down to here, and he's essentially moved into the house.
I am getting frustrated with how it seems like I don't flow through the avenues and circles that seem to generate content like I mine, but instead smaller avenues where my content is a little more likely to stand out, but I find that my patreon page, the only source of income I have since I'm still small (I'm at 41 followers on twitch, I'm happy, but it's not even enough to meet the minimum requirement for the new system they are rolling out), and lately, my patrons have dwindled off to maybe one or two paying a dollar apiece. This means that my supplementary income is completely drained as far as adding to the total house income, and the above boyfriend has decidedly become the person my grandmother goes to for this, because in spite of him not knowing exactly how she likes everything, he's the newcomer and I, the person who has already been trained, who has cooked meals for her over and over, should go out and get a job using my completely unnoteworthy skillsets in the current jobmarket.
The primary source of my frustration is this: I'm having to drop the next two days into a super stream extravaganza, drive up my patrons to get a couple of 10 dollar patron levels (gods I hope people go for the promises on this level) and a number of 1 dollar patrons. If I don't drum up enough patrons to provide SOME additional income, even 20-30 dollars worth, I'm pretty much out of time, and have to devote my time to going for a grueling job as a driver for a local pizza place that's so downright abusive and horrible to its drivers that they -never- remove the 'looking for drivers' signs, because a combination of 'most of this town is on meth, weed, or something else' mixed with, 'we don't pay our drivers gas money, we pay less than minimum wage, and we expect customers to tip to cover the difference' means that they have what boils down to a revolving door for their drivers. Unlike the in-store employees who get paid minimum based on the core fact that they get paid at LEAST minimum wage.
This job will absolutely suck up all of my time though, and my energy, and will kill any passion I have for doing much of anything, because after calling in to ask about the prospects of the job a few months back (they've long since changed managers), they expect workers to come in six days a week, and work at least full eight hour shifts. I don't know my town -THAT- well, so add in the stress of a mind designed to navigate via landmark being forced to navigate by street name, and you'll find someone who will likely come home, watch youtube for an hour, then sleep, and spend his one day off completely unplugged and unwilling to deal with anyone or anything. Not even Aetolia will interest me.
So, way back in January of last year, I posted about slipping on the stairs and wrenching my shoulder. Didn't post about the fall I took at work in December of last year. Caught myself, which is exactly what I shouldn't have done, and injured the same shoulder. I was unable to see the doctor for either fall and had to just walk it off. It seemed to work until I got a new job working at Cici's. The table scrubbing in particular really pissed my shoulder off and it hasn't stopped yelling at me since. By which I mean straight up crunching sounds. That was a good month ago. This time, I was able to see the doctor. Even got a note. Without X-rays and MRIs, which are right out because 'Haha, insurance? What's that?', the doctor's best diagnosis is tendonitis, and in both shoulders. Possibly also with rotator cuff injury (likely not a tear, at least) and bursitis lumped on top of the left one at the time I set the appointment. It's stopped crunching, but I feel like I've been thrown a soap party. The doctor wasn't surprised, since all my muscles are trying to take up the slack from my shoulders.
What really sucks, and what brings me to post here, is that I was able to successfully lobby for less hours, but only after I had just gotten my hours increased. Not only that, but I may as well not have turned in the doctor's note at all. All that's happened is that I have less time to do the same amount of work, and I can forget about them scheduling someone else to come in to help me. I'm hauling trash and scrubbing tables by myself, the two things that the note specifically was meant to limit.
When you spend credits to get a minipet token, and when you use it get an old minipet you've already had for years.
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SeirSeein' All the ThingsGetting high off your emotion
Well, after being three bottles of hard cider in, I can say this:
I had to bury my grandmother today, and it was really the first funeral I've been to since I was like... 4. I found out I was a pallbearer as I was asked to go up (I had no idea before) and, as per a tradition, I had to shovel the first layer on soil onto her grave, which was... something.
Her death didn't really hit me until I saw both my Dad and my grandpa break down, people who I've known for being so tremendously stoic my entire life. It was the saddest I've ever seen my father. My Grandpa, on the other hand, has lost his mom, his sister, and now my grandmother all in one year.
In short, it has been a very turbulent few days. I'm very grateful to those of you who have sent well-wishes. I especially want to thank those that, even though their characters didn't know Seir, they still wanted to take some time to give me some "feel good RP" just so I could take my mind off of things. It made a world of difference, and people did it from both sides of the game. That's really a fantastic feeling and I'm glad that people cared enough to do that.
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... COME ON. REALLY!?
But in the mean time I'll just spend $40 on a bag I know can hold it.
But grrrrrr rage. All this goddamn anxiety for no bloody reason. I feel like they owe me another vacation since they robbed me of mine by filling half of it with panic attacks and general anxiety to an excessive degree.
There's a more than likely chance, based on the symptoms my cat has (according to an RN for humans, and isn't really a Vet, but has a considerable bit more medical knowledge than I) kitty-cancer. I'm not sure if I am disbelieving them.. or if I believe them considering how sick she's been lately. I keep telling myself it's nothing, just her allergies.. but.. there's a lot of signs something is wrong with her, and I just caught a whiff of her breath, and it smelled bad. That's a sign of kidney problems, and it makes sense, I imagine. I've lost a few family members to cancer, Kidney failure was part of the symptoms for a number of them, if I remember correctly..
I'm not giving her up for dead, who knows, she might get better. I've already tried to get a vet scheduled, it's weird, none of the vets in my town either accept my insurance, or have openings. So I've gotta take a "wait and see" approach, and give her the most love I can I guess. There's not much else left to me right now...
Far worse than dog breath at any rate.
I hope your kitty is okay though! Save the cat friends!
For the last year and 3 months, we've been one person short in staff, which has caused all of us to stress. But the higher-ups have said no to hiring a part-timer, due to economics, but they still expect us to produce fully, or even more. We've been hoping and praying to get a part-timer, but nothing yet. Which leads us to the absolutely marvelous surprise we got yesterday! (NOT)
We are three employees and yesterday one of my coworkers told us that he's quitting. On tuesday... And the bosses will come have a talk with us (we have no info about what will be said on the meeting), on the same day as he quits, tuesday. We work, as you all might know, with chocolate and Easter is a pretty big time for us, with lots of work and stress and he told us 4 days before easter that he will quit the day after easter. We've sortof been in shock and I have felt more anxiety than I've had in a long time.
When I got to work this morning, our AC was dead. We cannot make chocolate pralines without our AC. We cannot temper chocolate without our AC. So, called the boss and I tried to explain that the room is too hot and that we cannot work without it and he was all "Is it because the sun is shining?" I managed, after some time, to get him to contact someone who can come look at it, but who knows when that someone might show up?
To make things even greater, (NOOOOOT!!) we got a new participant today. (Participants are people who come from the unemployment office to have work training, because of different issues, either physical or mental, and they need to learn their own boundaries and routines and how to be at a work place. I started out as one as well and got employed a year ago.) The problem with this participant is that... she doesn't know Swedish. Or english. And she's only at our work place to learn to speak swedish better.
Don't get me wrong, I think this is a great idea, but not for us. We are a company, a very small company, that produces wares every single day. We need for our participants to be able to understand enough to work and do things. This participants, with not knowing the language, can't do the work and we will have to take a lot of time to use body language to show things. In a time where our AC is dead, we lose one coworker, we have easter and 3 upcoming events. This... is not what we need right now. Thankfully, I managed to get our boss to have her at the office for the coming two weeks, but we will see what happens after that.
Ugh.. sorry about this huge rant. I just needed to get things off my chest. Everything that can go wrong seems to be going wrong and I am tired and I feel like crying, but I need to try and stay strong and make things work. It's frustrating..
I don't talk to a lot of people OOC, and I actually prefer to avoid it, but it was made clear to me that the playing human behind the character Karhast, was upset, and still catches flak for certain things that happened IG.
It's wrong.
Damage done: 0, electric, agile
You have been branded an enemy of the village of Helba.
Balance Used: 6.49 seconds
Equilibrium Used: 3.25 seconds
Amazing!
Edit: Note: Helba people = very sensitive.
At least they'll let you pay up to square things with them.
Not sure you'll get a new camel out of them, though. Might have to take that up with the Caentoi.
Cute-Kelli by @Sessizlik.
The break, however short, might do me some good. I'll still be checking in and responding to stuff, however.
Cute-Kelli by @Sessizlik.
One of those sorts of days where everything seems to align against you. Where if you'd done even one thing different, like stopped to tie your shoes or something at a different time, it'd have a totally different outcome.
Highlights include:
Getting involved in a car accident because I left for work early, went a more efficient way, and after deliberating about which spot I wanted to park in, taking one different to my usual one, because I thought "I'm gonna do something different today."
Spending $1.50AUD on a can of coke after said accident, only to discover later that I had less cash on me than I thought, and now no longer had enough money to get some lunch.
Burning dinner cuz I was distracted trying to sort out my car.
Deciding to wait until the morning to buy cryptic chests, rather than buy some straight away, cuz tomorrow was pay day, only to discover that pelt hoods I'd been hoping to get had been given out for people who'd bought one in the night, and then not getting one in any of the chests I bought.
Totally losing track of my car insurance paperwork, and learning that the damage to my car, which I thought was only moderate, might result in the car being written off because the frame might be damaged, getting into a massive arguement with my sisters tool of a boyfriend and then spilling my breakfast tea on myself.
Sigh. It would be bordering on hilarious if it didn't make me want to cry.
On the brightside, though, it's a new day!
Cute-Kelli by @Sessizlik.
The cost to reinstate my insurance, to renew my tag, to buy a new plate (thanks a lot Mary Fallin), to pay my fines and court costs, is more than I can cover, more than I could cover if I hadn't paid a single bill this paycheck, and the officer said I could potentially have my license suspended anyways. The new job isn't going to help, because the first paycheck from it is still 2-3 weeks away, and every day that passes and I haven't retrieved my tag from the City, the more it costs.
Luckily, my mother and step father said they would help me, and it'll all be taken care of (though not sure/clear on the license suspension). But it's just like, I have worked so fucking hard this last year and a half to climb out of debt, to turn my life around. I have sacrificed so much, and come December of last year things were looking really good for me. The clock struck Midnight on January 1st, a new year started, and the following day marked the beginning of the worst year of my fucking life so far. I have lost almost everything I have worked for in less than 2 months, and every time I think I've finally gotten my shit together, every time anything good happens, it just gets worse.
I am getting frustrated with how it seems like I don't flow through the avenues and circles that seem to generate content like I mine, but instead smaller avenues where my content is a little more likely to stand out, but I find that my patreon page, the only source of income I have since I'm still small (I'm at 41 followers on twitch, I'm happy, but it's not even enough to meet the minimum requirement for the new system they are rolling out), and lately, my patrons have dwindled off to maybe one or two paying a dollar apiece. This means that my supplementary income is completely drained as far as adding to the total house income, and the above boyfriend has decidedly become the person my grandmother goes to for this, because in spite of him not knowing exactly how she likes everything, he's the newcomer and I, the person who has already been trained, who has cooked meals for her over and over, should go out and get a job using my completely unnoteworthy skillsets in the current jobmarket.
The primary source of my frustration is this: I'm having to drop the next two days into a super stream extravaganza, drive up my patrons to get a couple of 10 dollar patron levels (gods I hope people go for the promises on this level) and a number of 1 dollar patrons. If I don't drum up enough patrons to provide SOME additional income, even 20-30 dollars worth, I'm pretty much out of time, and have to devote my time to going for a grueling job as a driver for a local pizza place that's so downright abusive and horrible to its drivers that they -never- remove the 'looking for drivers' signs, because a combination of 'most of this town is on meth, weed, or something else' mixed with, 'we don't pay our drivers gas money, we pay less than minimum wage, and we expect customers to tip to cover the difference' means that they have what boils down to a revolving door for their drivers. Unlike the in-store employees who get paid minimum based on the core fact that they get paid at LEAST minimum wage.
This job will absolutely suck up all of my time though, and my energy, and will kill any passion I have for doing much of anything, because after calling in to ask about the prospects of the job a few months back (they've long since changed managers), they expect workers to come in six days a week, and work at least full eight hour shifts. I don't know my town -THAT- well, so add in the stress of a mind designed to navigate via landmark being forced to navigate by street name, and you'll find someone who will likely come home, watch youtube for an hour, then sleep, and spend his one day off completely unplugged and unwilling to deal with anyone or anything. Not even Aetolia will interest me.
What really sucks, and what brings me to post here, is that I was able to successfully lobby for less hours, but only after I had just gotten my hours increased. Not only that, but I may as well not have turned in the doctor's note at all. All that's happened is that I have less time to do the same amount of work, and I can forget about them scheduling someone else to come in to help me. I'm hauling trash and scrubbing tables by myself, the two things that the note specifically was meant to limit.
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Teaching adult students and having a hunk of a guy as a student (approximately my age), being single and knowing he's single too.
Counting days until this semester is over...
I had to bury my grandmother today, and it was really the first funeral I've been to since I was like... 4. I found out I was a pallbearer as I was asked to go up (I had no idea before) and, as per a tradition, I had to shovel the first layer on soil onto her grave, which was... something.
Her death didn't really hit me until I saw both my Dad and my grandpa break down, people who I've known for being so tremendously stoic my entire life. It was the saddest I've ever seen my father. My Grandpa, on the other hand, has lost his mom, his sister, and now my grandmother all in one year.
In short, it has been a very turbulent few days. I'm very grateful to those of you who have sent well-wishes. I especially want to thank those that, even though their characters didn't know Seir, they still wanted to take some time to give me some "feel good RP" just so I could take my mind off of things. It made a world of difference, and people did it from both sides of the game. That's really a fantastic feeling and I'm glad that people cared enough to do that.
I will miss her terribly.