If a bear chases you, there is no point in running anymore.
Bears can climb trees, can swim, have a better reach than humans, can run pretty darn fast, and don't go down if you SHOOT them in a lot of cases. Plus claws, teeth, and greater strength.
Just settle down and accept your fate as bear-snack.
I'm really emotional lately. Really sad one minute, disproportionately angry over minor things the next. Struggling to cope with the ramifications of all the crap I've made for myself with my drinking issues, and a pretty depressing recovery period - don't feel comfortable doing a lot of social things, for example. Not an excuse for my behavior. I've been really horrid to people lately, getting snappy or emo and I am so sorry to everyone about this. I think I've lost one of my best friends because of my bitchy remarks. I'm sorry to everyone I've upset lately. I'm working on this.
Speaking of immortality/no limitations: I'm hosting an eight person dinner for which I decided to make homemade french onion soup, and cajeta pepper cupcakes for dessert (that has an intricate, time consuming filling and frosting) instead of doing, like, pasta for dinner and cake for dessert. Maybe they both would of been out of a box but hey, it would have been more time efficient. On top of that, I have two papers due tomorrow. Four hours of sleep last night, three hours the night before that all while having PMS. I dropped my thing of chicken stock I was supposed to make the french onion soup with and it splattered all over the floor. Have to go back to the store but first I had to take a break because I noticed I had been kicking and cursing out a box of chicken stock. (?) Stabs keeps asking me if the dragon is gone yet.
@Aryanne: I hear you! Before I met Stabs I was a pro at saving but now that I have a live-in partner I keep wanting to do DO stuff together like randomly going to Nashville for a four star dinner. It takes to discipline for me to be like, 'No. Today, I'm eating a cold ham sandwich that I thought I'd want for the rest of the week and I will DAMN WELL LIKE IT.' I keep trying to remind myself that I'm in 25k worth of debt from school but it doesn't always work. xD
"To be awkward or unkempt, to talk or move wrongly is to be a dangerous giant, a destroyer of worlds...any accurately improper move can poke through the thin sleeve of immediate reality." - Erving Goffman
I'm neurotically checking the University of Florida website trying to rip out any more information about the school and my major/minor that I can. It's not helping my eagerness to move. Neither did going to Gainesville and starting to learn my way around with a girlfriend yesterday. I'm anxious.
My scumbag ex-roommates. Not only does one of them owe me $1,000 from when he was jobless and couldn't pay his share of rent, both of them didn't even bother paying their share of the last three utility (water/electric/gas) bills. I got a collections notice from the utilities company stating that there's still over $700 owed. After a week of both of them ignoring my calls/texts/facebook messages, I finally get one of them to respond, barely. He acknowledged that it needed paid, but said nothing about when they were going to pay it. Meanwhile it's in my name, and they have the gall to get mad at me for harassing them about it... what the unicorns.
I also found out that they probably have the iPad I thought I had packed (I moved several states away over a month ago). They're evidently too stupid to realize I have my Chrome browser synced up on the cloud, and a webpage was opened up recently on it. As soon as I can find another iOS device, I'm going to use the Find my iPhone app to see where it is. If it's in Kansas.... hoo boy, I pity the fools.
I'm just utterly floored that people can actually be this terrible. I'm not a violent person by nature, but I would go there and take a metal bat to their kneecaps (or hire someone to).
@Iosyne: There are all kinds of people out there. Being owed a lot of money from people who don't really recognize it sucks. Some change though (thankfully). If not, go at them! I'll have your back (though I'm a bit too far away to make a difference).
This time last year was spent in an ER watching the person I'd anticipated spending the rest of my life with fade away unexpectedly.
I've been approaching this week with some dread, but also feeling pretty good about it because I've been doing pretty good on the whole emotional healing thing. I have not been losing my shit, not freaking out at random songs or unexpected medical emergencies on shows. I figured I'd be sad but okay this week given how I've been recently. But no, I'm not okay. Not even a little. There was no like,...transition from not sad into ultra-tender territory in which the most random crap can take me from normal person to ball of emotion in a heartbeat.
I feel like the last year of healing just vanished and I'd really just like to go crawl into a hole and wait for this week to be gone away again.
I really hate September generally. It -always- sucks.
I also found out that they probably have the iPad I thought I had packed (I moved several states away over a month ago). They're evidently too stupid to realize I have my Chrome browser synced up on the cloud, and a webpage was opened up recently on it. As soon as I can find another iOS device, I'm going to use the Find my iPhone app to see where it is. If it's in Kansas.... hoo boy, I pity the fools.
If you had it setup when you got the iPad, you can go to icloud.com, log in, and track the device there so long as it has location services on and wifi (unless it is 3g, then hope it has at least that or wifi connected). If you didn't turn find my iPhone on with icloud when you first got the device, unfortunately, you won't be able to locate it. I hope you can, though! Did support for Apple for a while with MMe/iCloud, so I have experience with the system and whatnot.
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a) immortal
or
b) ignorant to the fact that our bones and innards were made from rubber and jelly, respectively
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(The Front Line): Daskalos says, "<-- artifacts."
I ignore this.
Nothing is going to get better. It's not.”
― Dr. Seuss, The Lorax
Bears can climb trees, can swim, have a better reach than humans, can run pretty darn fast, and don't go down if you SHOOT them in a lot of cases. Plus claws, teeth, and greater strength.
Just settle down and accept your fate as bear-snack.
Nothing is going to get better. It's not.”
― Dr. Seuss, The Lorax
Well, I get it -now-. Running is probably not a good plan either way.
"To be awkward or unkempt, to talk or move wrongly is to be a dangerous giant, a destroyer of worlds...any accurately improper move can poke through the thin sleeve of immediate reality." - Erving Goffman
This time last year was spent in an ER watching the person I'd anticipated spending the rest of my life with fade away unexpectedly.
I've been approaching this week with some dread, but also feeling pretty good about it because I've been doing pretty good on the whole emotional healing thing. I have not been losing my shit, not freaking out at random songs or unexpected medical emergencies on shows. I figured I'd be sad but okay this week given how I've been recently. But no, I'm not okay. Not even a little. There was no like,...transition from not sad into ultra-tender territory in which the most random crap can take me from normal person to ball of emotion in a heartbeat.
I feel like the last year of healing just vanished and I'd really just like to go crawl into a hole and wait for this week to be gone away again.
I really hate September generally. It -always- sucks.