Damn you Wikipedia! I started off studying for an Anthropology test, went to wikipedia to look something up and realized an hour had passed. You evil temptress!
"To be awkward or unkempt, to talk or move wrongly is to be a dangerous giant, a destroyer of worlds...any accurately improper move can poke through the thin sleeve of immediate reality." - Erving Goffman
Bad things happening to good people.Now I can handle one or two instances but sometimes you run into someone you just want to flip off fate and tell it about the whorish ways of its mother.
Now a while ago we got a new trainee at work and to my exciting it was another girl! Yay! Well, woman. She'd been down on her luck for a while before the government organised this for her. She worked hard, was smart and generally awesome person. She's the person that went to bat for me when people started snarking at work about how I was taking time off because my dog passed away.
While she was moving here from her previous town she aggrevated a previous injury in her foot and wasn't allowed to wear a shoe on that foot for six weeks. She took it in her stride and helped out about the office. After a few weeks her foot got worse. Turns out the internal stitches they put internally when she had had surgery to fix it weren't dissolvable so she had another surgery to take them out. Another 6 weeks in the office.
Then she was working on the weekend and was driving to hand deliver urgent job paperwork to someone and she hits a kangaroo which send her careening into a tree. No phone reception so she drives the car to a friends place and goes to hospital. Thankfully light back injury and a bit of whiplash on bulk pain killers.
I go on holidays for a month, get sick so it's about 2 months until I return to work and she's not there. One day she didn't turn up for work, which is weird because she's one of those people who comes early and stays late, goes the extra mile etc. Boss goes around to her house to see if she is okay and finds her unable to talk or move. Straight to hospital - she's had a stroke.
She gets flown down to Brisbane, put into a coma and operated on. When they feel like she's okay to wake up they do it. She still can't talk but she's aware and alert... then has a seizure. She's put back into a coma. For the past month she's been in and out of comas because they can't figure out what's wrong with her. On top of that they discovered she has a hole in her heart and throat cancer.
Just, bugger off Karma, God. Whoever. Just leave her the hell alone for a while.
@Gwenith I really feel for this woman. I just want to give her a big hug. Life should never be that unfair. I hope, with all my heart, things turn around for her soon.
Decidedly dwarfed by all ^, my rage is cross-cultural games/sports/whatever when paired with an absurd insistence to keep using random chunks of word from the other language.
Trying to learn Go, and every other word I have to jump to a hyperlink to figure out wtf the word means, and every article starts with, basically, 'This word you don't know from a language you don't speak means : '
Hi, I speak English. You speak English. If 'hane' means 'reach' (or close enough), then maybe just call it reach. Or write entirely in Japanese and tell me I can't play. But make up your mind and stop with the random vocabulary words, I don't want to have to make flashcards to learn to play a board game.
EDIT: And this goes for Kendo too, oh man. 'Jyouge suburi' - just call it overhead swing or something. There's a whole language for this, don't import a java compiler for your C++ code.
Arbre-Today at 7:27 PM
You're a vindictive lil unicorn ---------------------------
Lartus-Today at 7:16 PM
oh wait, toz is famous
Karhast-Today at 7:01 PM
You're a singularity of fucking awfulness Toz
--------------------------- Didi's voice resonates across the land, "Yay tox."
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Ictinus — 11/01/2021
Block Toz
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lim — Today at 10:38 PM
you disgust me
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(Web): Bryn says, "Toz is why we can't have nice things."
I never want to peel another damn apple again! Wtf why did I get 3.5 DOZEN. At least they are delicious apples, because I wanted to go back for Gala and gold delicious this weekend. I'm stopping at 10 apiece. 6 to pie or applesauce, and 4 to eat at work so I can get off my cracker habit.
After 2 pies, apple crisp, and cake, I still have eight apples left. And all my fingers, fortunately.
How do I make un-cinnamony applesauce? For pie filling I've been doing a pan of 7-8 apples sliced and peeled, bake 10 min at 325, then add 1 cup sugar and some cornstarch, fridge 10 min. Only for applesauce I assume I will be bashing them vigorously with a spatula.
"Little pig, little pig, let me in, let me in. You look tasty and smell like bacon." *LICKLICKLICK*
Energy is fading, plans seem to be crashing, body is hurting for no reason at all, motivation is gone, Aetolia seems quiet and boring whenever I log in, depression is looming... Just feel like curling up in bed staring at the wall. I hate when life throws you a curve ball, especially when things slowly seemed to be moving in the right direction.
@Teani: It's a lot of "two steps forward, one step back," as they say. Difficult days (or a few) don't necessarily cancel out any progress you've made, even if they feel like it at the time. Hang in there!
@Emelle: It's been more like one step forward two steps back for a long time and I was kind of enjoying the notion that I was finally seeing some of the reverse you mentioned there. At least then you make some progress. Now I feel like everything is just falling back again.
Aetolia DOES seem super quiet and empty this weekend.
Edit: And hey @Teani, I completely understand that feeling. I struggle with depression myself. If you ever want someone to talk to, feel free to hit me up!
Feeling straight-up miserable 90% of the time that I'm awake. I can't wait until I get to have my surgery in the next month or so.
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SibattiMamba dur NayaAmidst vibrant flora and trees
Norovirus or rotovirus or one of those nasty stomach viruses is apparently going around Austin and someone in my workplace might be a carrier and I'm severely emetophobic and obsessively washing my hands every fifteen minutes and looking at everyone suspiciously oh god send help.
Norovirus or rotovirus or one of those nasty stomach viruses is apparently going around Austin and someone in my workplace might be a carrier and I'm severely emetophobic and obsessively washing my hands every fifteen minutes and looking at everyone suspiciously oh god send help.
Arbre-Today at 7:27 PM
You're a vindictive lil unicorn ---------------------------
Lartus-Today at 7:16 PM
oh wait, toz is famous
Karhast-Today at 7:01 PM
You're a singularity of fucking awfulness Toz
--------------------------- Didi's voice resonates across the land, "Yay tox."
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Ictinus — 11/01/2021
Block Toz
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lim — Today at 10:38 PM
you disgust me
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(Web): Bryn says, "Toz is why we can't have nice things."
Norovirus or rotovirus or one of those nasty stomach viruses is apparently going around Austin and someone in my workplace might be a carrier and I'm severely emetophobic and obsessively washing my hands every fifteen minutes and looking at everyone suspiciously oh god send help.
you're emetophobic and you want me to come to austin to go drinking with you?
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SibattiMamba dur NayaAmidst vibrant flora and trees
Norovirus or rotovirus or one of those nasty stomach viruses is apparently going around Austin and someone in my workplace might be a carrier and I'm severely emetophobic and obsessively washing my hands every fifteen minutes and looking at everyone suspiciously oh god send help.
you're emetophobic and you want me to come to austin to go drinking with you?
Are you saying you can't hold your drink? My illusions are shattered.
So I'm late for work today, and I ride the bus; for whatever reason, it hasn't shown up. City tends to take this seriously, so last time this happened was... months and months ago.
I also do this 5/6 days out of the week. I've been on this schedule with work for close to two years. I see the same three people at this stop every day.
...and I'm not even going to finish the story.
I hate DC and what it did to how I perceive culture. I hatehow easy it is to relate events back to that time.. I loathe that facing the problem head-on doesn't help.
Signed for a truck last week, sign for an apartment next week. Tried to find the silver lining in that little truck - it's smaller and older than the FJ I've been driving for 3 years, but still decent. And the payments are half of what they were.
Except that 2000 down payment, plus the 650 deposit on the apartment. Plus the 500 in hotel charges (to a hotel in a state I wasn't even in) to my gov card, which I have to eat until I get it disputed and sorted out (it's a hotel fuckup, not fraudulent). Moving expenses for two parties, one of which is traveling across the country. Shipping and boarding my dogs.
18 days until I'm rocking out on a standard issue cot in a 1 bedroom apartment by myself for the first time in seven years, because I'm giving her everything except the kitchen table, my laptop, and 3 boxes of personal belongings.
19 month old son moving 3100 miles away. That's the killer, man.
Sorry I've been such a dick for the last couple months. Shitty days + can't sleep + buy whiskey = most of those Enorian forays. Still, I'm responsible and so I'm sorry. Trying to find my zen lately, and just chill. I think I've been doing a little better. Be done and over in a couple of weeks, anyway.
Maybe I'll have the focus to build some stuff. Sorry, hadrak/ghend/whoever I've talked to about projects.
Thanks to everyone who has helped out with chats and shit. Love you guys. Especially @roux, but all the rest of you too.
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"To be awkward or unkempt, to talk or move wrongly is to be a dangerous giant, a destroyer of worlds...any accurately improper move can poke through the thin sleeve of immediate reality." - Erving Goffman
Now a while ago we got a new trainee at work and to my exciting it was another girl! Yay! Well, woman. She'd been down on her luck for a while before the government organised this for her. She worked hard, was smart and generally awesome person. She's the person that went to bat for me when people started snarking at work about how I was taking time off because my dog passed away.
While she was moving here from her previous town she aggrevated a previous injury in her foot and wasn't allowed to wear a shoe on that foot for six weeks. She took it in her stride and helped out about the office. After a few weeks her foot got worse. Turns out the internal stitches they put internally when she had had surgery to fix it weren't dissolvable so she had another surgery to take them out. Another 6 weeks in the office.
Then she was working on the weekend and was driving to hand deliver urgent job paperwork to someone and she hits a kangaroo which send her careening into a tree. No phone reception so she drives the car to a friends place and goes to hospital. Thankfully light back injury and a bit of whiplash on bulk pain killers.
I go on holidays for a month, get sick so it's about 2 months until I return to work and she's not there. One day she didn't turn up for work, which is weird because she's one of those people who comes early and stays late, goes the extra mile etc. Boss goes around to her house to see if she is okay and finds her unable to talk or move. Straight to hospital - she's had a stroke.
She gets flown down to Brisbane, put into a coma and operated on. When they feel like she's okay to wake up they do it. She still can't talk but she's aware and alert... then has a seizure. She's put back into a coma. For the past month she's been in and out of comas because they can't figure out what's wrong with her. On top of that they discovered she has a hole in her heart and throat cancer.
Just, bugger off Karma, God. Whoever. Just leave her the hell alone for a while.
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Trying to learn Go, and every other word I have to jump to a hyperlink to figure out wtf the word means, and every article starts with, basically, 'This word you don't know from a language you don't speak means : '
Hi, I speak English. You speak English. If 'hane' means 'reach' (or close enough), then maybe just call it reach. Or write entirely in Japanese and tell me I can't play. But make up your mind and stop with the random vocabulary words, I don't want to have to make flashcards to learn to play a board game.
EDIT: And this goes for Kendo too, oh man. 'Jyouge suburi' - just call it overhead swing or something. There's a whole language for this, don't import a java compiler for your C++ code.
After 2 pies, apple crisp, and cake, I still have eight apples left. And all my fingers, fortunately.
How do I make un-cinnamony applesauce? For pie filling I've been doing a pan of 7-8 apples sliced and peeled, bake 10 min at 325, then add 1 cup sugar and some cornstarch, fridge 10 min. Only for applesauce I assume I will be bashing them vigorously with a spatula.
"The smell of dusty fur, sweet smoke, waiting and patience, a thing that time cannot kill. The moth that candles won't burn."
@Meyvitch - Eat the skin, son. Healthy for ya. Fiber'n shit.
I remember, involve me and I
learn.
-Benjamin Franklin
Edit: And hey @Teani, I completely understand that feeling. I struggle with depression myself. If you ever want someone to talk to, feel free to hit me up!
Also rage that I wasn't qualified for a job with the state police(office job). But I have several others in, SO...yay.
I remember, involve me and I
learn.
-Benjamin Franklin
Hence why this is the first time I've forced myself to go to urgent care, since my doctor was unavailable.
Ughhh. This is awkward and uncomfortable.
Edit: fuck this. Fuck it so much. 155$ of my money to tell me to go to my specialist. This is unicorns.
For the last hour, a continuous tone of a dying APC. 73 out of 125 updates done on the computer I am shutting down so I can replace it.
Signed paperwork today.
Signed for a truck last week, sign for an apartment next week. Tried to find the silver lining in that little truck - it's smaller and older than the FJ I've been driving for 3 years, but still decent. And the payments are half of what they were.
Except that 2000 down payment, plus the 650 deposit on the apartment. Plus the 500 in hotel charges (to a hotel in a state I wasn't even in) to my gov card, which I have to eat until I get it disputed and sorted out (it's a hotel fuckup, not fraudulent). Moving expenses for two parties, one of which is traveling across the country. Shipping and boarding my dogs.
18 days until I'm rocking out on a standard issue cot in a 1 bedroom apartment by myself for the first time in seven years, because I'm giving her everything except the kitchen table, my laptop, and 3 boxes of personal belongings.
19 month old son moving 3100 miles away. That's the killer, man.
Sorry I've been such a dick for the last couple months. Shitty days + can't sleep + buy whiskey = most of those Enorian forays. Still, I'm responsible and so I'm sorry. Trying to find my zen lately, and just chill. I think I've been doing a little better. Be done and over in a couple of weeks, anyway.
Maybe I'll have the focus to build some stuff. Sorry, hadrak/ghend/whoever I've talked to about projects.
Thanks to everyone who has helped out with chats and shit. Love you guys. Especially @roux, but all the rest of you too.