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Oh, and for some reason, my PC likes to cut power to everything but "required functions" (AKA: The peripherals like my controller, and anything else with a light, as well as the "powered on" light at the front of my PC. ) But it cuts off power to my mobo frequently. I imagine there's a reason in the line of "my motherboard's dying" or something expensive like that I'd need to consider, and with my Patreon being so small, I can even begin to start piecing stuff together for this, sadly.
Same thing during the Kerrithrim event. All the build up to it, building the catapults etc. Then I missed going into it's heart etc.
Sad times.
Great writing though! Whoever wrote those world emotes needs to stand up and take a bow.
Instead of going to work and getting up at 5:00 with me, he decides to drop a randomly assorted mix of various substances, and shack up with some 20 year old girlfriend he made ties with over the internet, and who decided to move In suddenly. Totally blew off work and told me to tell the boss-man he was taking the day off.
He's fired now, owes rent, made me look like a jack ass, and recently dipped out of the apartment with his woman without paying for staying the time that he did.
Great. This is awesome.
1. Locked up at work earlier this week, lights decided to start flickering like there was a freaking shoot-out inside the building because of a short-circuit somewhere. Decided to leave it on to prevent potential fires and called to let the boss know. (It was thankfully fixed. No fire)
2. Boss makes a mistake in scheduling, requiring me to come in and work on my day off. (At least offered more pay, so fine.)
3. My transport to work broke down on my way to work Friday morning. (at least I was out in good time and made it to work without issues.)
4. Came home in the evening to find everything in my fridge has gone bad because fridge stopped working. (at least the freezer works, so I have some food)
5. Use the bathroom yesterday (Saturday) and my toilet breaks. Not the ordinary "can't flush" or "flooding" kind of problem. The porcelain throne broke. Cracked. Fell apart right underneath me, making me scrape my back against the jagged edges and land in a pool of sewage, with more water flooding in from the pipes. No other toilet in apartment, so have to use the one in the basement until tomorrow morning. (I just... I don't know... the universe clearly hates me this week? Difficult to make things worse)
6. Went down to get the previously mentioned transport to work, which I had locked down securely (or so I thought) nearby where it broke down, only to find out it had been stolen. (... FML )
- Discovered my Uni charged me an amenities fee twice due to some class shuffling. Wouldn't be an issue but it was silently declared overdue in August and my graduation is hence blocked due to a sanction until the 15 year old banking system deigns to process the payment I made today. Not a huge deal but I'm preparing to move and could do without the uncertainty.
- Would like to get back into Aet but Mudlet likes to arbitrarily eat sections of my system between loads and neither all my efforts nor the Mudlet help channel can make it stop. Formatted my OS in the meantime as well. Choice is between not bothering, or starting my system over from scratch or an old backup.
- Discord drama means my server list is pretty quiet these days. Mild mad, mostly sad.
Last Friday I stepped on a nail that went clear through my boot and sank all the way in. I also wanged a crowbar that lost it's bite where I had it planted and it smashed into my knee. Shortly after those incidents I lost my footing while I was standing on a giant pile of debris and my fall was stopped by landing the soft part of my right wrist onto the edge of a cinderblock - Ruined all the nerves in my hand for now and reduced my gripping power to about 60%. I also got the side of my forehead smashed front first by a big 2 x 20 that lost it's pivot point where it was resting.
This Saturday I fell off some scaffolding and fell from about 20 feet up onto a hard board - In essence my ribcage cushioned my fall, and now I have a fractured rib, sort of hurts to take a full inhale of air now.
I pride myself on my capacity to defend myself, and one of the most consistent measuring sticks I use against myself is being able to make contact, or ward off contact.
In my current state, I have to admit that if I had to close distance with something or someone, or fend off something or someone, I would be seriously hard pressed to do either.
That irritates me more within my conscience than all my injuries put together.
It's breaking me.
This is the second husband who has passed due to a heart attack, the first I was only 12 years old, she remarried when I was 15 and has been with her second husband for 20 years, only to have this man who has been with her through the good and the bad and brought her out of despair, die once more. I am trying to keep it together, its not the death that is bothering me as much as seeing a woman who is the queen of my family, falling to pieces and spiralling into such a deep sadness, over and over again that is going to get me. I cant console her because shes just lost, shes frustrated, shes angry, and she is sad.
This week has been rough...real rough. Sorry I am not around right now, I miss you guys a ton, hopefully I can have some distraction and holiday fun in the upcoming week.
Thanks for all being awesome though.
You take care of yourself and your family.
So anyways, reasonably, I am absolutely, completely terrified. I've been having nightmares and my days are full of anxiety and stress. This is supposed to be a fairly routine surgery, but man.. they're taking a part of my BRAIN. I'm scared.
They bring out the worst. The whole ordeal turns me into a raging a**hole, and my soon to be ex-wife as well.
I hate reflecting on any shred of intact good memories my marriage had. Because right now, none of it means anything.