My attitude in this game has been deteriorating for a long time. Probably stemming from an attempt to accept changes that have altered the routine of my game play that stem back to the decision to unify guilds and city. This deterioration only abated by an attempt (successful back then, not possible now) to adapt, accept and roll with these changes while keeping my own personal frustrations close to heart as this was unfair. My trust in the decision making pinned by this belief that choices are made carefully, are well thought out and with the ability to support the change to create the healthier population and environment this change is meant to address.
Two years later it hurts to feel alienated from a guild that ushered me into the game and became a focal point to how I came to identify my character. To see it see that guild be a shadow of what it was and to not reach the potential that it could be and not see the change to population and cohesion that was intended. More importantly, I realize I’ve lost trust in the decision making on high level changes.
This realization has come to me in waves, and I wouldn’t put it as a fault on the admin. Not Tiur, Razmael, nor any other producer I’ve had the pleasure of playing under. In my eyes the problem is too much demand and not enough resources. Three paid employees and a hand ful of volunteers can only provide so much! My perception of what it must be like for anyone running this game involves a daily triage of decisions that ultimately gets dismantled by the loud cries of the immediate needs (I use this word wondering how many needs are actually wants) of the players. Throw in a looming threat of appeasement or suffer the consequence of outcry and damnation and you got one heck of a unicorns sandwich! It’s a vicious cycle that I’m now participating in and don’t know how to pull myself out.
Today I sat and stared at RETIRE CHARACTER CONFIRM typed into my command line as I fumed over more decisions that I disagreed with, that required more adaption, and made me reflect on my attitude in general. I typed QUIT instead, but I think it’s time a break from Aetolia, if only to remove myself as one of the negative attitudes that is slowing down positive changes.
Catch you all on the flip side, when I’m able to be a more positive, happier player.