MAD 2: MADDEN'S MADDENING.

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  • I don't know what to really type into this. Not necessarily a mad..

    I have known someone since highschool, who pretty much all my close friends know - So ..Friday we all found out that this friend took his own life.

    He was a very charismatic. Funny.. sweet person. None of us foresaw it, but at the same time, we weren't shocked. That makes me really sad..

    All of it makes me really sad.

    My Uncle also passed away a month prior. He has been in and out of the ICU and physical therapy for 6 months.. The final 6 months of his life, were spent in a hospital bed. We aren't having the service until after Christmas so family can attend. But he fought for his life. Now someone gives their life up. I'm a bit twisted. Regardless, more than anything, I'm still just sad..

    EmelleTeani
  • We need an 'our hugs are with you' button. :/
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    Tenshyo
  • MarienaMariena By a lake.
    I need to share what is probably the most scary experience of my life that happened at the ER yesterday night. To back up a little bit, I had a migraine since Friday and this puppy had teeth. It was sunk into my brain and no amount of Imitrex was knocking it back.

    Sunday morning, I woke up with severe pain, total nausea and I said enough, dad please take me to the ER. This first time, they gave me 2 Toradol shots and a zofran shot for the belly. This worked for maybe 2 hours. Enough to get home, go to bed, and wake up with...

    You guessed it, the migraine. Which apparently was offended I tried to get rid of it, because whoo boy it doubled down on its efforts.

    So after crying a bit and throwing up some more, and not being able to get hold of a nurse to ask if I could take more Imitrex considering the toradol amount in my system, back to the ER we go. It is 8pm by this point.

    They give me this second time a migraine cocktail, they call it. Benadryl, a steroid, and this drug called Reglan, all in an IV with fluids. Oh okay great, I think. Benadryl will knock me out, all will be fine. NO. No fellow Aetolians, this is NOT what happened.

    Apparently I react TERRIBLE to Reglan because I wanted to clime out of my skin, the need to move was so great. I was hot all over, I felt trapped and like I wanted to claw my face off. Dad, who took me, called the Nurse, helped me sit up, and pretty much was like 'you're okay, it's okay it's a reaction, you're fine'. Meanwhile I was in straight up panic land.

    So, They have on staff a great guy who is also very large and very capable of subduing. He brought me a chair so I wouldn't be 'trapped' in the bed. He sat me down in it and we started breathing exercises. A whole bunch of 'look at me now, keep concentrating on me. Breathe in like you're smelling roses, pause. You have to pause, okay now blow out candles with me, blow blow.. Now keep breathing, you can't hold your breath'. Then they turned on the tv and told me to concentrate on that as well.

    I sat in the chair rocking and twitching and checking IV lines because it was compulsory, I had to make sure they were okay, had to. Don't know what would happen but had to keep checking.. For about a half hour. then they brought in more Benedryl, commented that I probably shouldn't have Reglan ever again, and sent me home.

    Migraine's finally licked though. So I got that goin' for me. Which is nice.


    EmelleXandrenTeaniIraeNolaQephah
  • My ass is currently in the ER with kidney pain, from a stone, so that's the pits.
    MarienaIraeEmelle
  • So I got into an accident shortly after I moved. And my car was in the shop for 7 weeks. It was an asbolute pain and a strain on my wallet, since I fell into the rhythm of taking Ubers to and from work. I've had it back for about 4 weeks or so, used it to even drive home for Yom Kippur and to see my girlfriend in Brooklyn. I've treated it like its made out of glass. Almost hyperaware of any issue or anything wrong with it. Perhaps a little hypo-car-driac, if you will. But justifiably so. Thing was pretty totaled.

    So I got out of work early today and thought to come home, refill some meds, get a haircut, pack, etc for the holidays. I find out my staff is here (Yay!) since my students baited me into breaking my old one, and I've been eager to get a new one. I live in a townhouse facility on top of a parking garage. The garage is used by townhouse residents, local business workers with passes, and is a pay garage where you can park for the day or by the hour, etc. People fly in and out of this thing at WAY faster than the 5mph speed limit. They make wide turns, park over lines, and are just generally inconsiderate. I knew I was at risk the moment I moved in.

    SO, I get in, park, unpack from work, change a bit. Go and get my haircut. Feeling nice and clean, come back, watch some Youtube, Read some Cracked, etc etc. I hop in the car to go to the UPS store to pick up my staff and when I pull out I notice something in the corner of my mirror.

    Some absolute ASSHOLE has gone and scratched and dented up the right front bumper and fender of my car. THE VERY SAME BUMPER AND FENDER that just got replaced in my accident. And, seeing as this happened while I was in my house, and due to the sheer amount of clientele this garage services, I have literally no idea who did it, and probably never will.

    My parents and my insurance company had to pay out the ass to fix up the car after the last accident (Which, I will admit, was entirely my fault) But I have endeavored to drive as carefully and defensively as possible since that day, so it wouldn't happen again. And now someone's gone ahead and scratched up the side of my car because they park like an idiot.

    It's purely aesthetic (From what I'm able to feel and see so far) so my hope is it drives fine to get me the 3 hour trip home and back for Thanksgiving, but still. I'm really, really mad.
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    IraeEmelle
  • I'm working with my doctor to get better but I still HATE having Strep, asthma, and a cold at the same time. I've been having fevers, fatigue, a swollen throat, some breathing problems, strained vocal chords, drainage in my ears, constant coughing fits that prevent me from sleeping restfully no matter what I take, and other issues. It's been a week today since this started and I can't shake it. Not that there's ever a good time to get sick but this is an especially bad time. Vacation starts next week so I don't have the paid time off to take now while I'm sick if I still want to go, @Zarni is in finals week now and needs some extra suport from me while he gets through it, AND work is extremely demanding this time of year.

    TL:DR: Wtb a miracle pill. PM me if you're holding.

    (Spinesreach): Xiuhcoatl says, "Oh man, grab the children-corn. This is gonna be good."
  • edited December 2016
    @Eydis

    I dunno how it'll effect the strepthroat, but a good "home remedy" of sorts is what I call a "Virgin Hot Toddy", all you need is honey and lemon juice. Mix only about a teaspoon of lemon juice into two tablespoons of of warm (note: runny) honey. Mix well, then drink. The lemon juice subdues the coughing a bit, while the honey coats the throat and vocal chords in a way that helps ease it a bit. Add whiskey (or other alcoholic drink) if you want to, though its not what I reach to it for in regards to what I'm suggesting it for. It's one of the two things I pass around any time someone is sick. I keep ginger ale for upset stomachs, and I make this for when someone is coughing up a storm and its causing them problems.

    Honey: The magical wonderfood that we've used for centuries now.

    edit: I forgot to mention: I usually use purified clove honey, but that's just because it's my honey of choice, and the most easily available type I can get on the cheap. And plus, honey is one of those awesome things you can use in place of sweeteners in things like tea, or cereal, or just about anything you'd add sugar to in the first place.
    The rushing sound of waves breaking upon a shore fills your mind as Slyphe imparts to you, "Meltas is a bit..special sometimes..."
  • MarienaMariena By a lake.
    @Eydis @Xandren We use this remedy too, only we make it with lemon tea and then honey. Add rum if you want to be lulled to sleep a little too.

    Eydis, do you have Vix or Vaporub on you? Sometimes that helps ease the coughing too. There is something to do with smearing your feet and putting socks on. I don't know about that one but it's something to try. Do you have a humidifier? It might help to add some essential oils in and breathe


  • @Xandren: thanks for the recipe, I'll give it a shot! 

    @Mariena: @Zarni and @Corvo have been trying to talk me into Vix lol. I might cave and buy some if it means I can get some sleep lol. I can probably deal with the smell for a little while. And I used to have a humidifier when I was a kid. I forgot all about them. I'll probably pick another one up since I remember it making a big difference. 

    (Spinesreach): Xiuhcoatl says, "Oh man, grab the children-corn. This is gonna be good."
  • @Eydis

    no problem! I'm glad to share what I do know, and I'm someone who hates cough syrups that affect my sense of judgement, especially when I'm just dealing with a persistent cough that's hurting my throat, and I've got stuff I need to get done, heh.
    The rushing sound of waves breaking upon a shore fills your mind as Slyphe imparts to you, "Meltas is a bit..special sometimes..."
  • TeaniTeani Shadow Mistress Sweden
    edited December 2016
    So, this is more of a "I'm baffled" kind of thing. (I've censored the bad word)




    Should be noted, the person wanted to call me after this.



  • MarienaMariena By a lake.
    @Teani People are stupid


    TeaniZaila
  • SerriceSerrice the Black Fox
    I'm fascinated that you chat in English!
     
    Zaila
  • TeaniTeani Shadow Mistress Sweden
    @Serrice, this guy happened to be from the UK, but as you can see, his writing skills are somewhat lacking. However, I do prefer English and use that whenever I can get away with it. 



  • SaritaSarita Empress of Bahir'an The Pillars of the Earth
    So I applied for a credit card that had a nifty 100,000 airline mile sign up bonus if I was able to spend whatever amount in the first three months (we figured out that with the mortage and other expenses, we can,) and got denied. Why? Because one of the three credit agency things apparently missed the memo that I 1) got married and changed my name six years ago and 2) moved out of a certain house seven years ago. Nothing of my credit file with them has been updated since either of those two things happened, so the rejection was literally that I have nothing of note on file with THAT agency even though the card I applied for has a personal history with me and has sent reports about me to the other two. (Which are all fine, by the way.)

    ARRGGGG.
  • I've been sick on and off with a cold/strep/asthma plague. I finally started to get better and then I get super intense cramps from my IUD. To put the pain in perspective, I've experienced a cyst twisting my ovary before and this is one or two steps down. The good thing is it only lasts for, at most, 20 minutes? I'd like to think I have a high pain tolerance but as soon as it hits, I can barely stand. Obviously that makes working with elementary school students awkward at best.

    TMI but: My (and Dr. Google's) best guess is that the IUD + PCOS makes it so the eggs don't have anywhere to go. They hang around like whimpering exes on my ovaries. Since I have the gory stuff that comes with them bursting, maybe I'm just experiencing them burst one by one? It could also be that they're not bursting and the gory stuff is somehow from my strings digging into my...yeah. Maybe it's a combination of strings burrowing and my ovaries twisting? Loldonotwantthx.

    Part 2 of my problem: My doctor is completely booked. She's the only one I feel comfortable with so the idea of going to another one gives me a lot of anxiety, especially if a guy has to look under the hood. For this much pain, I'll just deal with it and finally make the appointment.

    TL;DR: Party at my place in 10ish years to celebrate my hysterectomy.

    (Spinesreach): Xiuhcoatl says, "Oh man, grab the children-corn. This is gonna be good."
  • ArbreArbre Arbrelina Jolie Braavos
    My IUD slipped too low and I had to have it removed. I ended up in the ER because the pain was so severe. Just another consideration.
    Eydis
  • ErzsebetErzsebet Altaholic
    edited January 2017
    Ick. Hearing these things make me glad I got nexplanon instead of an IUD. Hope things get better for you soon, Eydis.

    Unrelated, have been feeling like I'm about to pass out and-or throw up in turns all day long. Walked about halfway to the bus stop this morning (maybe six minutes) and felt overheated and like I was about to faint. Was maybe 50 degrees outside, so it's not like I was overdressed for the weather. Wish whatever the hell this is would knock it off. Especially while I'm at work. Is hard to do good customer service when you're focusing on not throwing up on things and I'm really trying to avoid calling out right now in general 'cause work is about to do its yearly exodus of 'let'sfireeveryone' and I really don't want to be on the chopping block.
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  • JensenJensen Corruption's Butcher
    There will be a day where IUD is not synonymous with IED in my brain, but today is not that day
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  • Marital problems.

    Mixed with some issues from work, I'm pretty much just a ball of anger on a constant basis lately.
  • SibattiSibatti Mamba dur Naya Amidst vibrant flora and trees
    Keep being you, Didi.
    KelliaraArbrePazradymMihaketiXavinLinPeriluna
  • Within the Death Caves.
    Hovering several feet in the air, a necromantic construct of thick ribbon gyrates chaotically.

    First tattoos on kelki monsters. Then forum posts came up, now artifacts. WHO IS GIVING THESE THINGS TO MOBS.

    Arbre-Today at 7:27 PM

    You're a vindictive lil unicorn
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    oh wait, toz is famous

    Karhast-Today at 7:01 PM

    You're a singularity of fucking awfulness Toz
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    Didi's voice resonates across the land, "Yay tox."
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    Ictinus11/01/2021

    Block Toz
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    you disgust me
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  • RhyotRhyot Bloodloch
    Not a maddening, just a sad realization...

    Depression can be a real pain in the ass. Especially when you walk the line between suicide and keeping on because of your friends. Some days, its really hard to see the positive when all you feel is the negative. -shrugs-


    DidiRhoynnSynne
  • EmelleEmelle Dreamshaper Tecpatl's Cradle
    To quote Sherlock, from the most recent episode:

    "Taking your own life. Interesting expression. Taking it from who? Once it's over, it's not you who'll miss it. Your own death is something that happens to everyone else. Your life is not your own."

    I don't know if it will mean anything to you, but it rang true for me, and I'm usually pretty quick to dismiss anything overly sentimental.

    Take care of yourself.
    DidiTeaniRhoynnZaila
  • SeirSeir Seein' All the Things Getting high off your emotion
    Posting here because I don't really have anywhere else to rant about this:

    Went to a therapist a few years ago who ultimately determined that I'm vastly stressed out by being near my Mom. She is bipolar, has a history of alcohol abuse, has depression, and so forth. She has alienated most people and friends from her life because she would generally call them on drunken tirades in the middle of the night, blaming them for things that never happened or faults in her life. Her sister is emotionally abusive to my Mom, and they take my Aunt's side over my Mom's side, so she's estranged from them. My brother has nothing to do with her because he's fairly callous and doesn't have anything to do with anyone unless they conform to his perceptions of what's acceptable. I'm the only exception to this rule because he's otherwise cut everyone else out on his side of the family.

    So, I've been wracked obscenely by guilt lately. I generally keep my Mom at arm's length, sometimes only seeing her two or three times a year for a visit. Primarily because it's not healthy for me. However, I'm the only one that still makes a modicum of effort to be there for her, despite how turbulent she can be. I'm getting more and more guilty as she gets older and I see her attempt to reach out more on social media, just wanting to talk to me because she doesn't really have anyone else. I can see her making attempts to try to make amends, but I can't trust her and so I try to keep her at arm's length. A part of me knows that she won't always be around forever, and this is certainly more true as she gets older, but to say that she stresses me out would be a vast understatement. I've just been so utterly wracked by guilt from all of this and I don't have the heart to tell her the truth, primarily because I'm all she has left. So I try to tough it out, support her where and how I can, and be a loving son.

    Unfortunately, these instances and previous family drama have made me reluctantly to be close to my family on a whole. Visiting anyone outside of my father generally causes me to be anxious and makes me just want to run for the door to go home. However, this doesn't really help the guilt that I feel afterwards. Hard not to feel so utterly torn between what's healthy for me and trying to be there for my family, especially my Mom.
    Leana
  • Seir said:

    Hard not to feel so utterly torn between what's healthy for me and trying to be there for my family, especially my Mom.

    As someone who is living this exact situation, you shouldn't feel guilty for trying to keep yourself healthy. But, you never get rid of it entirely. It's more, you'll have to pick the conversations and the social media replies, and the good times sparingly. The bad ones will still be there and you'll feel just as bad sometimes. You don't owe her anything, even if you feel like you do or someone tells you that you do. A mother has a child and the child owes that mother a lifetime of happiness. Even in the worst times, if she doesn't admit it, or if she says and does the exact opposite, that's what she expects from you.

    Don't give up, but make the conditions healthy for you both. Talk regularly, weekly if you can stomach it, bi-weekly, monthly - but don't wait longer than that. Be honest, but kind in your honestly. Swallow your temper when you know you can't hold, say quick goodbyes when things don't work. If you care this much, you love her and let her know. Even if the situation is hard to say, maybe just in goodbye. Talk about the boring daily stuff, create a few taboo topics that always go poorly and don't touch them when you can and let her know you don't want to talk about them. If she knows you want a relationship and to have one with you will require some change, she'll get it eventually. These are some of the coping measures I've come up with.

    From someone who lost this chance with another parent, the regret will always beat out your guilt or anger. Don't wait. Even a text message can be baby steps towards healthy communication. But, don't forget to be honest all the time and kind, positive and kind. Then, when you're in direct contact, cut yourself off from her. Ignore the social media, the calls, the texts like little vacations. I moved far enough away from mine to make this possible but close enough that I could visit in a day (a few hours drive).

    You're not alone and if you need to talk, just hit me up.


    BufordEmelleMariena
  • ZailaZaila Pacific Time
    @Drestyn - I click "Insightful" because there isn't a button for "I want to give you a hug while backhanding the unicorns for you"
    DrestynTeaniPerilunaSeth
  • @Drestyn Lawyer up. Especially if that unicorns was in writing anywhere.

    But on real notes, that sucks dude :( Hope thing work out!

    XavinDrestyn
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