Today we said farewell to my father. The ceremony was beautiful, the eulogy pointed at all the right aspects of him, the flower arrangement had the right amount of nature and summer notes, the music hit all the right notes, and it all felt right.
Many people came and shared their memories with us afterwards, which gave me a warm feeling, knowing that there were plenty of others that he had touched in some significant way. I miss him and I always will. There's no denying it. He was the second most important presence in my life and he has influenced me in so many ways. However, through that, and the memories he left with so many people, he lives on. I know he was proud of his children, and his grandchild.
To all of you, never take anyone for granted. Enjoy the moments you have with your loved ones, remind them how much you love them, and how proud you are of being part of their lives, helping to write the story of their lives.
I was really excited about this fall. I knew that even though the summer job might become a pain, I could look forward to a full-time job in August, where I'd be handling classes from the very start of the semester and not just pick up the pieces after someone I'd substitute for. Work started out well and I made myself useful, setting up plans for the fall semester within my first two weeks, before the students arrived.
Then my dad died. On the first day of actual school. Doesn't matter that he was sick, it was still unexpected and it completely drained my enthusiasm (naturally). It's been rough trying to go through it all, sorting everything out while the head keeps bouncing back and forth between good memories to the awful mental images of his last minute alive. It went quick, is what we were told. He died at home, which is what he wanted, but is of little comfort when you miss him and feel bad about not visiting him so often.
To make things worse, even though this is a relatively small thing in comparison, last week I found out that someone has been skimming my account. Close to $400 has been taken in small amounts around the time one usually pays the bills, so it went unnoticed. Thankfully the bank is stepping in and returning the lost money, and I get a new card before my trip next weekend. (Adding to the frustration is that the card was blocked for internet purchases before I could try for one more go at salvage.)
I need more energy. It's draining way too rapidly lately.
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