All the work that was put into Duiran by the admin, to try to get it moving forward lore-wise, was great. You all were very patient and did some fantastic stuff with it. I think the lore is way more accessible now, which will only help the place.
I don't really do affirmations any more and don't even have my own going, but I wanted to take a second to drop you one.
Our interactions have been absolutely hilarious lately. The back and forth banter about pretty much anything has me laughing just as much in the game as it does outside of it. You write well and your thoughts come across in such a way that the real spirit of Sigmund can be felt - even in tells.
From our early interactions, you were a solid a-hole to deal with (and I mean that in the best way). Getting frustrated with trying to think of ways for my character to argue in defense of her ideals was the most difficult with you, but I enjoyed the challenge. Almost miss it a little, but I'm kind of glad for my brain getting a break. But, I can only imagine that there will be butting of heads again eventually about something and I'm excited for it.
Tonight was a bittersweet night. I got to get out of the house by myself to go to an auction, but was for my mom's estate. The reason I am putting this in the love section, however, was the entire night bringing back so many great memories from when I was younger. I felt poetic for the first time in years, though all I could keep thinking to myself is 'you can't go writing that out, you'll only make more harm than good'. That brought back the feelings of bitter I've held against my siblings starting in 2001, made me think hard on everything I've held back because I didn't want them to know just how hurt and frustrated I had been with them vs my parents.
So, I've settled that it is time to see a therapist. No just medicating, which is nice, but actual working through my bitterness to see if I can be better than my parents. It feels really good right now, even if it may just be mostly tiredness, to know that I may find peace with it in coming months.